Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Body changes

My boobs started growing during the birth control, then I noticed my clothes were getting tighter. No joke by Sunday my bra's were tight and yesterday when I was wearing my fat shorts I had to change out of them because they were too tight. AHHH so today I'm off to the mall to buy some drawstring pants or even some work out pants that fit.

I feel sick!!! Started yesterday. Totally felt wonderful then I started playing with my friend Beth's kids and it hit me. The rest of the evening it came it spurts. I'd feel like I was gonna puke then it would go away. Nothing like that this morning, I think when I lay around and sit its fine, its as soon as I get some what active it hits.

Monday, May 28, 2007

Lupron injections

Call me weird but I was actually excited about giving myself my first injection. I kept waking up in the night to make sure I hadn't missed my alarm because I need to take my shot between 4 and 8 in the morning, but whatever it is I need to be consist ant so my alarm clock is set to 7:30. I woke up got Melody out of bed to video tape and went to it. I'll post the video as soon as I get a hold of my husband and he is able to walk me through it.

Anyways the shot wasn't bad it felt like I was getting pricked by a needle and then after the injection the area looked like a bug bite. It was a bit tender at first but now I feel nothing. I made sure to read all the symptoms that can be brought on by these injections and there were thinks like irregular heart beat, nerve damage... a huge list!!! But most common where hot flashes, bone aches and nausea. I'm proud to say I didn't even get a head ache. I feel amazing in fact I feel like I have a lot of energy. Basically Lupron is like hormones I pumping into myself so I'm wondering if maybe I need to find a better vitamin that will natural produce more.

I am experiencing some spotting though. I was told this shouldn't happen until I stop my birth control but I started it yesterday so I know it has nothing to do with the shot. The clinic was closed to tomorrow I'll call them and inform them, I'm sure its nothing but I just want to make sure. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get the video posted for all you that want to see it.

Love ya!!!

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Feeling Blue

I'm so glad I don't have to take birth control, I hate it! Its hard to tell what I'm feeling, I'm done with my cycle but I'm a ball of emotions and the only thing I'm on is birth control. I've cut out all caffeine so that could be part of it as well. I just want to cry and I need my husband to hold me! I'm usually the life of the party running around and going crazy with my nieces and nephews but I'm feeling irritated being around sound. I just want quite but when its quite I'm just depressed. Only 11 more days of the birth control... although this is probably the easy part of all this.... Only 22 days till I see my husband... sounds like forever!

Friday, May 18, 2007

Baseline blood work and ultrasound

I had my baseline ultrasound and blood work this morning at 8:30. I was so excited that I woke up around 3:30 and kept looking at my clock.

I brought my friend Melody along with me. She is so funny!!! An experience will always be remember with Melody. I'm sitting in the waiting room filling out paper work and she starts laughing when she hears the people in the back saying "you've come into see us twice and both times we've told you that you need to gain more weight" then she stomped out of the office. So then the lady comes to get me and I ask if my girlfriend can come in and watch. Well then it dawns on me that they're probably thinking were lesbians. They figure it out later though when I start talking about my husband. So as I'm waiting in the procedure room Melody is talking about a friend of ours that has ugly kids... I'm like shhhh Mel people in this clinic would die for an ugly kid. So then the doctor comes in and he was asking about what was going on and then Melody goes into the story... "well there from Atlanta and there doing the procedure in Seattle because they have some friends up there that did it and she is monitoring here where her family is but they want to go to Seattle to do this so that there not near family and its just them ya know?" I'm laughing with Melody later saying its not a big deal people to out of town monitoring all time... she was just thinking that they were upset that they wernt getting all our business. Then during the ultrasound she gets to see everything on the screen and she is like "wow" "that's so cool" "oh my gosh that's crazy" She just makes me laugh I really cant focus on anything except for how funny she is. Then once all that was done they took my blood and now they are sending the results up to Kirkland ad I should have a call from them this afternoon telling me to start my birth control and aspirin.

Thursday, May 17, 2007


I started my cycle and I've never been more excited for this time of the month. I'm jumping up and down and ready to yell it from the roof tops..... " I STARTED!!!!!!!!" I just called the clinic and the receptionist just wanted me to leave a voice mail for this lady who isnt going to be in today and I had to call back multiple times and get tossed around because I have to have an appointment tomorrow morning. So until then....


Just though you might want to see some of my drugs... I've got an additional 3 boxes in the fridge. I guess it doesn't look to scary... just a lot of needles.

Trial Transfer

May 17, 2007

Well on Tuesday I flew in to Portland and was met by my Mom and sister and then I got into my sisters car drove to Melody and Ben’s dropped off my suitcases and did a quick repack before taking off to Seattle. I drove all the way to Mark and Julie’s house, were we stayed up talking for a long while. It’s so nice having someone like them around. They next morning I got to play with the triplets … they are so beautiful!!! Then I drove to the clinic.

It took a little over 3 hours to get to the clinic because of traffic. I was supposed to do my trial transfer on a full bladder so on the way down I drank my water. Then while being stuck in traffic I really had to go… BAD!!!! After about 45 min of needing to go bad it just plain hurt. I get close to the clinic and then there is construction and I sit there while the road worker has his sign on stop and these trucks are in the middle of the road moving way to slow. Finally we are able to go and I take the wrong turn. By the time I get to the clinic I have to park my car in the garage and the only place I could find was in the back. I got out of the car and walked like a duck to the office. As soon as I get in I ask “can I please go a little it stings?” So I was able to let a little out. Then about 5 minutes later I’m ready to go again and they say ok just a little more. The finally called be back 15 minutes late and laid down on the exam table she began my ultra sound and said wow you do have full bladder so I said “does that mean I can pee a little more?” so she said sure do you want to change back into your pants or just go. I said I need to go. So holding my paper towel wrap I ran around the clinic to the nearest rest room. Then I went back to the exam room.

Basically the procedure starts off like a pap smear. They insert the clamp (doing ultra sounds the whole time) then they took a few samples of the swab samples and then they tested the needle. During the actual procedure they don’t want to hurt you and then need to put the needle in at exactly the right place so they need to do measuring. They determined how far the up the needle should go. The whole thing took about minutes. The doctor informed me that my bladder could be less empty the day of the procedure. Whem… I don’t think I could relax with all that much in my bladder.

Once I was done I went to the front desk and asked about when I would do my injection training and then a lady in the office said she would do it with me. So I was taken to a back room where a lady named Sarah showed me the ropes of injection and walked me through all of the medications. I was able to practice giving shots into a pad and drawing them and mixing them. I really feel so much better about all that. Once you know what you’re doing needles aren’t that intimidating. Although when practicing grabbing my skin and finding where to shoot myself will be a challenge. I lack fat on my gut but the needles aren’t to long and I should be fine.

Then I drove back to Portland and I was sooo sooo sooo tired!!!! I stopped to get lunch, gas and even toiletries because I needed to walk around to stay awake. I then went to my brothers and parents house and then Melody took me to my new home for the next 6 weeks. Melody is the best friend a girl could have. She has prepared a room for me with all new bedding and sheets. It looks like a peaceful retreat in here. I unpacked my bags and she drew a milk bath for me and a eucalyptus towel for my neck. When I was done here friend Mary came up and blew dry my hair and gave me a head and neck massage and then Melody tucked me into bed, where I slept for 9 and half hours… and now I’m laying in bed typing this.

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Big blessings

I've been working on ordering all our medications. (More then I can count) I'm going to be one druged up women... Anyways I got a call from the pharmacy and it turn out our insurance picked up half of it!!!!! Which we didnt think they would cover any of it.

Formerly "Scrambled Eggs"